You have quietly noticed the Admiral keeps two logs of the ship's distance. The one he reads to the frightened men shows a shorter distance to keep them calm. The private one he locks in his desk you have glimpsed only once, a page thick with crossings-out and second guesses, as if he too is lost and afraid to admit how far off course you have drifted. This evening, he catches you looking at the locked drawer.
The Admiral's Log